Just a Girl and Her Laptop

Rise of a Silent Hellion

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Dear Aquarius,

Please remember that although you think it’s easier to suck it up about the little annoyances of your day sometimes it’s better to take the gum out of your jeans before you wash them ya know?
(Don’t bottle it up, it’s worse for you and those you love).

Filed under Aquarius zodiac personal problems

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August 9th 2014

I need to do something but really don’t feel motivated to do much. Work called earlier this morning and wanted to know if I could cover someones shift but 4 hours of work doesn’t feel like it’s worth the effort.

Yet I sit here worried about future finances and my mental state.

Moving in a few months maybe and I feel completely unprepared.

20 years old and I feel like my life is faaarrr from being together. People keep asking me if I’m in school or what my future plans are and to be honest I just want to be happy and able to pay all of my own bills. Of course I know things don’t come easily and getting a life together take time but I just keep feeling like I’m behind.

Being away from the love of my life doesn’t really help either. That whole week I got to spend with him I felt like I was home. Comfortable, safe, sure of myself. What my jobs were didn’t matter, what my career plans were didn’t matter as long as WE had plans and could work toward them everything is fine but now that I’m back home I feel like my heart has been ripped from my chest. I’m disconnected from everything and everyone here and I just want to be home again. With a head clear of self doubt and worry, so I can actually accomplish something.

Maybe that’s just codependent issues rising up, maybe not. I’m clearly confused.

I wish I could just fix this.

Filed under personal life love job future long distant relationship travel

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7/14/14

I don’t get it.

Why exactly long distance relationships have to suck soo fucking much.

I’m sorry we have nothing todo to spend time together anymore but yes after months and hours of Netflix and MMORPS I’m a bit burned out those things.

I’m sorry that you have to work nights and get there just as I’m starting to feel tired.

I’m sorry that I get jealous and when I hear you talking to someone else at 2am I don’t instinctively think “oh must be one of his friends he’s talking to while trying to play a game”

Also I don’t get the point of staying on the phone with me all night while I’m sleeping if I was upset before and you’re going to play your games loudly after. I just don’t get it.

But I love you. More than the water in the oceans and the air in the atmosphere. I love you more than all the stars in the sky and all the possible galaxies and universes and alternate galaxies and universes. I don’t always get you and your reasoning. But I do love you and I know you love me.

I just wish I could complicate things a little less.

Filed under personal feels love truth I'm crazy out my mind mmorpg netflix

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7/3/14

Bored out of my wits and I’m just not quite sure how to fix this little problem of mine. I have a list of things I can do that’s a mile long and I feel I’ve gotten about halfway through it and I’m still bored.

The four walls that form this house form a never ending maze of boring and the moment I can take a step outside it is only to let me self begin a boring journey to one of my two boring jobs in this boring town.

The tumbleweeds in this town have more adventured than I do.

Filed under boring personal it's my life