Knowing that someone completes you does not mean that you started as an incomplete person. It just means that you have flaws, and the person that “completes” you can make up for those flaws and vice versa.
I just had, probably one of the most important conversations I have ever had with my mum just now.
Let me catch you up… As you know I was planning on moving at the end of the year. Then my boyfriend, my wonderful wonderful boyfriend, said he wouldn’t mind moving with me which really got me thinking. I have been thinking and thinking since he said this. Since the beginning of my thinking he has gone home and mentioned that he wants to start looking for a job here in California…
That’s some scary shite bro. Scarier, my mum said he could live here.
Then I though some more, and thought again. Then this morning my brain exploded with those reruns of thousands of conversations Arkansas and I have had both reassuring me and making me have doubts about moving in with him (This is starting to sound dramatic it must be getting good).
Just when I was starting to feel my brains dribble out my ears I knocked on my mums door. (OoOoOoOoOoHhHhHhHh!!!)
Now I don’t usually go to her about much but today I just felt as if she might be able to help. I started spilling my guts about all my concerns and hashed out all my scrambled thought. She responded to every one of my makeshift sentences with beautifully worded strings of poetry.
Long story short, I love Arkansas far more than I thought I was capable of and I have no doubts that he loves me as well. We have a good amount of wits about our relationship and can always fully resolve any issues that arise. Even so, we are both human and still have a lot to learn about each other and about life so we need to keep our toes on the ground and tread carefully.
Our moving in together in a new state with no assurance of work or housing and cars that are nearly within deaths grasp is not exactly the smartest move.
But if I can save and get my car at the end of this year, then spend another year saving for the move I would be in much better shape. And since he suggested it, I may just take Arkansas up on that offer about him moving out here. With the only condition being that he saves up all the money needed for the move and 3-4 months rent first. So he could hopefully be out here by October?? Dunno that will be entirely up to him. But I do think just before we leave California he should get a new car.
Little Time Line
-save money (start now)
-Arkansas Moves to California (6/14-12/14)
-HOORAY (5 ever)
-I Get a Newer Car(12/14-2/15)
-Move Out of State With Awesome Boyfran! (2/16-5/16)
And I think that’s a pretty decent amount of time for those things to take place…ideally.
My love has gone home. My bed feels much too empty for comfort.
How exactly did I get from hopeless loveless jumbled up mess, to tripping over myself in love with someone that meshes so well with me!?
I made a list of pro’s and con’s about Arkansas and the pro’s list was much bigger not to mention half the things on the con’s list are just petty little things that aren’t really a bit deal.
Moral of the story, my boyfriend is a human, but he is a fucking awesome human.
I had an amazing time while he was out here. Every moment with him just felt right, even in during not so pleasant times. I finally felt like a whole person, as if with him by my side I could do anything. I guess at this point all I’m really doing is rephrasing corny chick flicks.
Regardless, I am for the first time starting to feel like a whole person. Arkansas picks up where my character traits fall short and he helps me to be the best person I can be. As individuals we are pretty cool but together…we are fucking bitchin!
Hopefully we can put an end to this distance soon. It has only been 1 day and I miss him all too much.
So, my boyfriend will be in town in 3 days. My parents leave town tomorrow for about a week. AAAANNNDDD my house is finally…FINALLY, looking clean and beautiful. Not to mention my birthday is coming up.
Yup! The big 20. Guess it really isn’t that big of a birthday but I feel like it’s quite a milestone for me. I’m hoping to spend this year keeping my home and mind free of dust as well as save as much money as possible so come the end of the year I can hopefully have enough for a decent down payment on a new car. Let’s go Subaru!
I really would like a Subaru though.
I need to start writing some more lists tomorrow to be sure I got everything I needed to done. Grocery shopping is probably something I can do on the way home from work later this week if I need to.
I’m really just looking foreword to coming home from work and giving Arkansas a big ol’ kiss. That and Disneyland, because come on who doesn’t look foreword to Disneyland!??
CRAZY PEOPLE, THAT’S WHO!!!!!!!
Anyway, I feel very…together. Which is very off for me but I can hardly express the difference some cleanliness in my house makes. It’s like a whole new building, a place I can actually live and not stress in. I completely rearranged my room as well so it’s functional as well as relaxing. Now I suppose I’ll just need to go to work for the next 3 days and patiently wait for that 11pm flight to get in so I can REALLY relax and feel at home.
Let me tell ya, I am one lucky gal.
Just realized my last two posts have pretty much the same information lol! Noot a good thing.
I will give a proper update at some point but for not this just seems easier.
Lots has happened in recent months. That wonderful bearded man from Arkansas is now my significant other.
We had our first visit in December and yea…he deflowered me.
He’s coming out to visit me in a few weeks.
In other news I’m working at the storage facility again. Not sure if anyone remembers that since it was about two years ago and most of my followers are spam blogs anyway.
Still working at the craft store, finally able to use that money just to take care if some small bills. Planning on moving out of state by the end of the year, possibly this time next year, so that is something to look forward to.
Still loads more to catch you up on but I’m watching the second Hunger Games flick at the moment and Katniss is killin’ it.
Jay-Z is in Beyonce’s Drunk in Love video, and it is just the cutest thing I have seen in awhile.
Anyway, so things are good. I’m starting my old storage job again, still working at the craft store, aaannnnddd my boyfriend is still awesome! Wooo.
I’ll be moving up to Washington in about a year so that gives me all that time to save and get all my shit together because lord knows how long that could take.
Back to Beyonce!