Thank goodness I am not the same girl I was when I started this blog. Well I am…just a little bit more grown up. I can only hope I keep growing like this because I really do wonder what I’ll think of my current posts in a few years.
Damn I’m going to be wise as fuck.
*earns 12 life points*
Please remember that although you think it’s easier to suck it up about the little annoyances of your day sometimes it’s better to take the gum out of your jeans before you wash them ya know?
(Don’t bottle it up, it’s worse for you and those you love).
1. Life isn’t fair, but it’s still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short not to enjoy it.
4. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and family will.
5. Don’t buy stuff you don’t need.
6. You don’t have to win every argument. Stay…
I need to do something but really don’t feel motivated to do much. Work called earlier this morning and wanted to know if I could cover someones shift but 4 hours of work doesn’t feel like it’s worth the effort.
Yet I sit here worried about future finances and my mental state.
Moving in a few months maybe and I feel completely unprepared.
20 years old and I feel like my life is faaarrr from being together. People keep asking me if I’m in school or what my future plans are and to be honest I just want to be happy and able to pay all of my own bills. Of course I know things don’t come easily and getting a life together take time but I just keep feeling like I’m behind.
Being away from the love of my life doesn’t really help either. That whole week I got to spend with him I felt like I was home. Comfortable, safe, sure of myself. What my jobs were didn’t matter, what my career plans were didn’t matter as long as WE had plans and could work toward them everything is fine but now that I’m back home I feel like my heart has been ripped from my chest. I’m disconnected from everything and everyone here and I just want to be home again. With a head clear of self doubt and worry, so I can actually accomplish something.
Maybe that’s just codependent issues rising up, maybe not. I’m clearly confused.
I wish I could just fix this.
I need a better social outlet (work is not cutting it). This lack of mental stimulation is kind of killing me.
I hung out with some old friends last night and it definitely should have/could have been more fun.
Not that I don’t like those girls….I just think it might be time for new friends.
Stop sitting in your room and go out and play. You may not like all the people here much but you need them. I know you don’t wanna and you don’t like them but this silence is killing you. Don’t you see how miserable it makes you?
Go and be free little Aquarius.
I don’t get it.
Why exactly long distance relationships have to suck soo fucking much.
I’m sorry we have nothing todo to spend time together anymore but yes after months and hours of Netflix and MMORPS I’m a bit burned out those things.
I’m sorry that you have to work nights and get there just as I’m starting to feel tired.
I’m sorry that I get jealous and when I hear you talking to someone else at 2am I don’t instinctively think “oh must be one of his friends he’s talking to while trying to play a game”
Also I don’t get the point of staying on the phone with me all night while I’m sleeping if I was upset before and you’re going to play your games loudly after. I just don’t get it.
But I love you. More than the water in the oceans and the air in the atmosphere. I love you more than all the stars in the sky and all the possible galaxies and universes and alternate galaxies and universes. I don’t always get you and your reasoning. But I do love you and I know you love me.
I just wish I could complicate things a little less.
Bored out of my wits and I’m just not quite sure how to fix this little problem of mine. I have a list of things I can do that’s a mile long and I feel I’ve gotten about halfway through it and I’m still bored.
The four walls that form this house form a never ending maze of boring and the moment I can take a step outside it is only to let me self begin a boring journey to one of my two boring jobs in this boring town.
The tumbleweeds in this town have more adventured than I do.
Got some assholes running things today.
So much bad attitude in the air I can fucking smell it.